I can honestly say its been the most shocking year I've ever had. I've lost so many incredibly significant people in my life. All in different ways. Thru death. By choice. Simply by change. And sometimes the people in my life have become completley different people all together. It's alll beeen very sad....to say the least.
Maybe Peyton Sawyer is right. It's def seeemed that way this year. Fortunatley I've had a very small number of poeple come thru for me and to them i'm so grateful!!!
I've always lived by the quote, "Life is a balance of holding on and letting go."
Theres been a constant reminder that sometimes the balance is not all together there. Sometimes we cant let go. And sometimes we dont want to hold on anymore. Ive struggled with this my whole life, but especiially in the last 3-4 years. I've learned so incredibly much this year about myself and about the people in my life.
And don't get me wrong. I've had some amazing people in my life this year and some lovely moments with incredible people. It just seems the moments have been very few and far in between.
I hope to have MORE incredible moments MORE OFTEN in 2010. I realize we are in control of our lives. I dont want to be bitter anymore. I want to have faith that things WILL turn around. things WILL get better. I want to LIVE. I want to experience the world and different people. January 1st is like a breath a fresh air. So take a breath. Anything can happen. The possibilities are endless!
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